Elizabeth had been a good deal disappointed in not finding
a letter from Jane on their first arrival at Lambton; and this
disappointment had been renewed on each of the mornings that
had now been spent there; but on the third, her repining was
over, and her sister justified, by the receipt of two letters
from her at once, on one of which was marked that it had been
missent elsewhere. Elizabeth was not surprised at it, as Jane
had written the direction remarkably ill.
They had just been preparing to walk as the letters came in;
and her uncle and aunt, leaving her to enjoy them in quiet,
set off by themselves. The one missent must be first attended
to; it had been written five days ago. The beginning contained
an account of all their little parties and engagements, with
such news as the country afforded; but the latter half, which
was dated a day later, and written in evident agitation, gave
more important intelligence. It was to this effect:
"Since writing the above, dearest Lizzy, something
has occurred of a most unexpected and serious nature; but I
am afraid of alarming you—be assured that we are all
well. What I have to say relates to poor Lydia. An express
came at twelve last night, just as we were all gone to bed,
from Colonel Forster, to inform us that she was gone off to
Scotland with one of his officers; to own the truth, with Wickham!—Imagine
our surprise. To Kitty, however, it does not seem so wholly
unexpected. I am very, very sorry. So imprudent a match on
both sides!—But I am willing to hope the best, and that
his character has been misunderstood. Thoughtless and indiscreet
I can easily believe him, but this step (and let us rejoice
over it) marks nothing bad at heart. His choice is disinterested
at least, for he must know my father can give her nothing.
Our poor mother is sadly grieved. My father bears it better.
How thankful am I, that we never let them know what has been
said against him; we must forget it ourselves. They were off
Saturday night about twelve, as is conjectured, but were not
missed till yesterday morning at eight. The express was sent
off directly. My dear Lizzy, they must have passed within ten
miles of us. Colonel Forster gives us reason to expect him
here soon. Lydia left a few lines for his wife, informing her
of their intention. I must conclude, for I cannot be long from
my poor mother. I am afraid you will not be able to make it
out, but I hardly know what I have written."
Without allowing herself time for consideration, and scarcely
knowing what she felt, Elizabeth, on finishing this letter,
instantly seized the other, and opening it with the utmost
impatience, read as follows—it had been written a day
later than the conclusion of the first:
"By this time, my dearest sister, you have received
my hurried letter; I wish this may be more intelligible, but
though not confined for time, my head is so bewildered that
I cannot answer for being coherent. Dearest Lizzy, I hardly
know what I would write, but I have bad news for you, and it
cannot be delayed. Imprudent as a marriage between Mr. Wickham
and our poor Lydia would be, we are now anxious to be assured
it has taken place, for there is but too much reason to fear
they are not gone to Scotland. Colonel Forster came yesterday,
having left Brighton the day before, not many hours after the
express. Though Lydia's short letter to Mrs. F. gave them to
understand that they were going to Gretna Green, something
was dropped by Denny expressing his belief that W. never intended
to go there, or to marry Lydia at all, which was repeated to
Colonel F., who, instantly taking the alarm, set off from B.
intending to trace their route. He did trace them easily to
Clapham, but no farther; for on entering that place they removed
into a hackney-coach and dismissed the chaise that brought
them from Epsom. All that is known after this is that they
were seen to continue the London road. I know not what to think.
After making every possible enquiry on that side London, Colonel
F. came on into Hertfordshire, anxiously renewing them at all
the turnpikes, and at the inns in Barnet and Hatfield, but
without any success; no such people had been seen to pass through.
With the kindest concern he came on to Longbourn, and broke
his apprehensions to us in a manner most creditable to his
heart. I am sincerely grieved for him and Mrs. F., but no one
can throw any blame on them. Our distress, my dear Lizzy, is
very great. My father and mother believe the worst, but I cannot
think so ill of him. Many circumstances might make it more
eligible for them to be married privately in town than to pursue
their first plan; and even if he could form such a
design against a young woman of Lydia's connections, which
is not likely, can I suppose her so lost to every thing?—Impossible.
I grieve to find, however, that Colonel F. is not disposed
to depend upon their marriage; he shook his head when I expressed
my hopes, and said he feared W. was not a man to be trusted.
My poor mother is really ill and keeps her room. Could she
exert herself it would be better, but this is not to be expected;
and as to my father, I never in my life saw him so affected.
Poor Kitty has anger for having concealed their attachment;
but as it was a matter of confidence, one cannot wonder. I
am truly glad, dearest Lizzy, that you have been spared something
of these distressing scenes; but now, as the first shock is
over, shall I own that I long for your return? I am not so
selfish, however, as to press for it, if inconvenient. Adieu.
I take up my pen again to do what I have just told you I would
not, but circumstances are such, that I cannot help earnestly
begging you all to come here as soon as possible. I know my
dear uncle and aunt so well that I am not afraid of requesting
it, though I have still something more to ask of the former.
My father is going to London with Colonel Forster instantly,
to try to discover her. What he means to do, I am sure I know
not; but his excessive distress will not allow him to pursue
any measure in the best and safest way, and Colonel Forster
is obliged to be at Brighton again to-morrow evening. In such
an exigence my uncle's advice and assistance would be every
thing in the world; he will immediately comprehend what I must
feel, and I rely upon his goodness."
"Oh! where, where is my uncle?" cried Elizabeth, darting from
her seat as she finished the letter, in eagerness to follow
him without losing a moment of the time so precious; but as
she reached the door, it was opened by a servant, and Mr. Darcy
appeared. Her pale face and impetuous manner made him start,
and before he could recover himself enough to speak, she, in
whose mind every idea was superseded by Lydia's situation,
hastily exclaimed, "I beg your pardon, but I must leave you.
I must find Mr. Gardiner this moment, on business that cannot
be delayed; I have not a moment to lose."
"Good God! what is the matter?" cried he, with more feeling
than politeness; then recollecting himself, "I will not detain
you a minute, but let me, or let the servant, go after Mr.
and Mrs. Gardiner. You are not well enough;—you cannot
go yourself."
Elizabeth hesitated, but her knees trembled under her, and
she felt how little would be gained by her attempting to pursue
them. Calling back the servant, therefore, she commissioned
him, though in so breathless an accent as made her almost unintelligible,
to fetch his master and mistress home instantly.
On his quitting the room, she sat down, unable to support
herself, and looking so miserably ill that it was impossible
for Darcy to leave her, or to refrain from saying, in a tone
of gentleness and commiseration, "Let me call your maid. Is
there nothing you could take, to give you present relief?—A
glass of wine;—shall I get you one?—You are very
ill."
"No, I thank you;" she replied, endeavouring to recover herself. "There
is nothing the matter with me. I am quite well. I am only distressed
by some dreadful news which I have just received from Longbourn."
She burst into tears as she alluded to it, and for a few minutes
could not speak another word. Darcy, in wretched suspense,
could only say something indistinctly of his concern, and observe
her in compassionate silence. At length, she spoke again. "I
have just had a letter from Jane, with such dreadful news.
It cannot be concealed from anyone. My youngest sister has
left all her friends—has eloped;—has thrown herself
into the power of—of Mr. Wickham. They are gone off together
from Brighton. You know him too well to doubt the
rest. She has no money, no connections, nothing that can tempt
him to—she is lost for ever."
Darcy was fixed in astonishment. "When I consider," she added,
in a yet more agitated voice, "that I might have prevented
it!—I who knew what he was. Had I but explained
some part of it only—some part of what I learnt—to
my own family! Had his character been known, this could not
have happened. But it is all, all too late now."
"I am grieved, indeed," cried Darcy; "grieved—shocked.
But is it certain, absolutely certain?"
"Oh yes!—They left Brighton together on Sunday night,
and were traced almost to London, but not beyond; they are
certainly not gone to Scotland."
"And what has been done, what has been attempted, to recover
her?"
"My father is gone to London, and Jane has written to beg
my uncle's immediate assistance, and we shall be off, I hope,
in half an hour. But nothing can be done; I know very well
that nothing can be done. How is such a man to be worked on?
How are they even to be discovered? I have not the smallest
hope. It is every way horrible!"
Darcy shook his head in silent acquiescence.
"When my eyes were opened to his real character.—Oh!
had I known what I ought, what I dared, to do! But I knew not—I
was afraid of doing too much. Wretched, wretched, mistake!"
Darcy made no answer. He seemed scarcely to hear her, and
was walking up and down the room in earnest meditation; his
brow contracted, his air gloomy. Elizabeth soon observed and
instantly understood it. Her power was sinking; every thing must sink
under such a proof of family weakness, such an assurance of
the deepest disgrace. She should neither wonder nor condemn,
but the belief of his self-conquest brought nothing consolatory
to her bosom, afforded no palliation of her distress. It was,
on the contrary, exactly calculated to make her understand
her own wishes; and never had she so honestly felt that she
could have loved him, as now, when all love must be vain.
But self, though it would intrude, could not engross her.
Lydia—the humiliation, the misery, she was bringing on
them all—soon swallowed up every private care; and covering
her face with her handkerchief, Elizabeth was soon lost to
every thing else; and, after a pause of several minutes, was
only recalled to a sense of her situation by the voice of her
companion, who, in a manner, which though it spoke compassion,
spoke likewise restraint, said, "I am afraid you have been
long desiring my absence, nor have I any thing to plead in
excuse of my stay, but real, though unavailing, concern. Would
to heaven that any thing could be either said or done on my
part, that might offer consolation to such distress!—But
I will not torment you with vain wishes, which may seem purposely
to ask for your thanks. This unfortunate affair will, I fear,
prevent my sister's having the pleasure of seeing you at Pemberley
to-day."
"Oh, yes. Be so kind as to apologize for us to Miss Darcy.
Say that urgent business calls us home immediately. Conceal
the unhappy truth as long as it is possible.—I know it
cannot be long."
He readily assured her of his secrecy—again expressed
his sorrow for her distress, wished it a happier conclusion
than there was at present reason to hope, and, leaving his
compliments for her relations, with only one serious, parting,
look, went away.
As he quitted the room, Elizabeth felt how improbable it was
that they should ever see each other again on such terms of
cordiality as had marked their several meetings in Derbyshire;
and as she threw a retrospective glance over the whole of their
acquaintance, so full of contradictions and varieties, sighed
at the perverseness of those feelings which would now have
promoted its continuance, and would formerly have rejoiced
in its termination.
If gratitude and esteem are good foundations of affection,
Elizabeth's change of sentiment will be neither improbable
nor faulty. But if otherwise, if the regard springing from
such sources is unreasonable or unnatural, in comparison of
what is so often described as arising on a first interview
with its object, and even before two words have been exchanged,
nothing can be said in her defence, except that she had given
somewhat of a trial to the latter method in her partiality
for Wickham, and that its ill-success might perhaps authorise
her to seek the other less interesting mode of attachment.
Be that as it may, she saw him go with regret; and in this
early example of what Lydia's infamy must produce, found additional
anguish as she reflected on that wretched business. Never,
since reading Jane's second letter, had she entertained a hope
of Wickham's meaning to marry her. No one but Jane, she thought,
could flatter herself with such an expectation. Surprise was
the least of her feelings on this developement. While the contents
of the first letter remained on her mind, she was all surprise—all
astonishment that Wickham should marry a girl whom it was impossible
he could marry for money; and how Lydia could ever have attached
him had appeared incomprehensible. But now it was all too natural.
For such an attachment as this, she might have sufficient charms;
and though she did not suppose Lydia to be deliberately engaging
in an elopement, without the intention of marriage, she had
no difficulty in believing that neither her virtue nor her
understanding would preserve her from falling an easy prey.
She had never perceived, while the regiment was in Hertfordshire,
that Lydia had any partiality for him, but she was convinced
that Lydia had wanted only encouragement to attach herself
to anybody. Sometimes one officer, sometimes another had been
her favourite, as their attentions raised them in her opinion.
Her affections had been continually fluctuating, but never
without an object. The mischief of neglect and mistaken indulgence
towards such a girl.—Oh! how acutely did she now feel
it.
She was wild to be at home—to hear, to see, to be upon
the spot, to share with Jane in the cares that must now fall
wholly upon her, in a family so deranged; a father absent,
a mother incapable of exertion and requiring constant attendance;
and though almost persuaded that nothing could be done for
Lydia, her uncle's interference seemed of the utmost importance,
and till he entered the room, the misery of her impatience
was severe. Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner had hurried back in alarm,
supposing, by the servant's account, that their niece was taken
suddenly ill;—but satisfying them instantly on that head,
she eagerly communicated the cause of their summons, reading
the two letters aloud, and dwelling on the postscript of the
last with trembling energy.—Though Lydia had never been
a favourite with them, Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner could not but
be deeply affected. Not Lydia only, but all were concerned
in it; and after the first exclamations of surprise and horror,
Mr. Gardiner readily promised every assistance in his power.—Elizabeth,
though expecting no less, thanked him with tears of gratitude;
and all three being actuated by one spirit, every thing relating
to their journey was speedily settled. They were to be off
as soon as possible. "But what is to be done about Pemberley?" cried
Mrs. Gardiner. "John told us Mr. Darcy was here when you sent
for us;—was it so?"
"Yes; and I told him we should not be able to keep our engagement. That is
all settled."
"That is all settled!" repeated the other, as she ran into
her room to prepare. "And are they upon such terms as for her
to disclose the real truth! Oh, that I knew how it was!"
But wishes were vain; or at best could serve only to amuse
her in the hurry and confusion of the following hour. Had Elizabeth
been at leisure to be idle, she would have remained certain
that all employment was impossible to one so wretched as herself;
but she had her share of business as well as her aunt, and
amongst the rest there were notes to be written to all their
friends in Lambton, with false excuses for their sudden departure.
An hour, however, saw the whole completed; and Mr. Gardiner
meanwhile having settled his account at the inn, nothing remained
to be done but to go; and Elizabeth, after all the misery of
the morning, found herself, in a shorter space of time than
she could have supposed, seated in the carriage, and on the
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